The Lonely Bird Up In The Tree

Still Missing You

I wish I could say good morning and good night

Or ask how you are

Or read a letter from you

Thank you for sending me our family history

I loved that flurry of letters to and fro

I read and reread your last letters to me

In July of last year

Must have read them a hundred times

And will read them one hundred times more

I want to pick up the phone and call your number

At home but you were seldom there

Because you were always at work

So I called you there

And it was late in the evening

The sound of delight in your voice at hearing mine

Made me forget why I called

So I just talked about this and that

And it was alright because

I just wanted to hear your voice too

You were busy

Yet you listened and laughed and giggled

Your voice filled with tenderness and kindness

So I lingered

I can hear your voice

Yes, I hear your voice

And I see your face now a faint smile

It aches my heart

I am not lonely

I do not like that word

Such a loser word

I am too busy

Life is too full to be lonely

I am too defiant to be lonely

But somewhere in my heart

There is sorrow

Overwhelming pain from missing you

And not just in mine

I miss you

I miss you

I just want to envelop you once more with my arms

How we love you so

Inday Ched said we must go on

She said you would want it that way

I just want to tell you that

I miss you so much

And I love you

Sometimes I feel like a child

Helpless

Even though I know what to do

Must go on

I suppose

But the tears obscure my view

And blur my sight

Now I know why that with all the things I could have had

When Mother left

I only wanted her handkerchief
To wipe my tears away

I shall remember the smile in your face

The day I learned to cook

Popetchca
I miss you
I love you
Forever.

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The Lonely Bird (if you can see it). I do not like the word "lonely." I find it most undesirable of all emotional states. I would rather be filled with sorrow or sadness than feel lonely which is not the same as being alone or solitude which I adore. My personal computer has a new operating system - Mountain Lion. Hurrah! Turns out that not everything that worked perfectly with Snow Leopard which made my life easy, are compatible with Mountain Lion. It made obsolete all Power PC applications and has no current flash player to run in Safari. Therefore I have to watch videos using the windows platform via Chrome. Worst of all, I lost my printer and scanner. What to do? Buy new printer and scanner of course which I have not done so. But as Ces, I should make the most of it, right? Right. Since I can't scan anyway, I started drawing on even larger Bristol Boards and Paris Paper, at least 14"x17". The only way for me to capture these images for now is through photographs just like the above image.

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