You are my scarlet Fiestaware in the snow!
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Awaken!
30 inches x 40 inches.Oil on canvas.
Aaaw! I have never been more excited and enthusiastic to paint! I am so happy and so energized, like an internal trigger was implanted in me.
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...and I seldom dislike a painting because I will cover it and let it be gone, but this one, this one, I just love her! She was in a coma for a year and a half! She was neglected in a dark unkempt closet and I was ready to get rid of her.
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Self-analysis: Impetuous and tempestuous are not the best of combinations in a woman already intense and oh so ambivalent, but through the years I have learned to be earnest and prudent, or have I? Maybe I have just learned to live with the consequences?
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I am past middle age. I don't think I will live to be a hundred, therefore I said that. Sometimes I take stock of everything and everyone around me to assure me that I am doing the right thing. On whose terms though? Ah, I subject myself to many standards and rules and I make my own for me...and do I think I am successful? Let me rephrase the question, Am I satisfied?
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My husband has a slight complain about me. I avoid answering questions. Oh, I do reply but a series of statements hardly answer the question. Repeat the question, Am I satisfied?
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Scarlet, yes, that's her name. Scarlet up there was born a few months ago. Go back to my previous posts and you may find her. She metamorphosed way back from winter and today she has made me very happy, copacetic, in fact most satisfied.
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She had her eyes closed and she did not look very happy. One day I decided to start anew and then came along one. She guided my heart and my hand and I was uncapping bold pigments! Her ashen face blushed and she opened her eyes! Oh my God, she looked at me and I sat there and I smiled. Yes, you will do. You are alright! I love you and I will give you the things you like, a cup of coffee served on a scarlet mug, very hot, it stings your taste buds, you hate tepid, you love hot; a good book, fine paper and a beautiful pen, flowers and that darn black notebook. And you will sit in a bright room, the color of which will match the skies of the sunrise and sunset in the desert which will be your new home.
Scarlet has been reborn and so has your enthusiasm for painting! I often feel those waves Ces! Something will come along and just breathe new life into you! Let's here it for Scarlet! She is terrific!
ReplyDeleteBTW... a little off topic.... I think you should write a book! I know it's early in the day for this but I so enjoy your art and stories that I think it would make a great book! : )
Good morning Manon! Oh you beautiful lovely you! You make my smile even bigger. Thank you very much. You are full of encouragement. I need that to spark my week!
ReplyDeleteHappy MONDAY!
ReplyDeleteYes, she is very lovely. The loveliest. She has a beautiful, radiant complexion, and she exudes satisfaction. Peace, bliss, equilibrium. I cannot tell you how much I love the color of her walls. It reminds me of the home I miss so much.
And I agree with Manon. You should publish an illustrated memoir!
Ah!, but you are coming home dear! and you will be surrounded by bright colors but not walls for you are free!
ReplyDeleteWill you touch me please . .I need some enthusiasm infection . .! Nah seriously, she looks most content and I'm so glad you brought her out of the doldrums. You do that for me on a daily basis! Illustrated memoir . .excellent idea although don't you have to be 'old' to write your memoirs. I am so in denial right now!
ReplyDeleteBaino, but I thought it was you who take me out of the doldrums with you fiery wit and your blog provides me much needed adscititious enthusiasm.
ReplyDeleteShe is so thoughtful and knowing, peaceful and all embracing, even her angularity has an embrace in it. She is woman and a dear delight!
ReplyDeleteJust read the comments, an illustrated biography is just the thing. You don't have to be old to do that, it is better to write several at different points of your life because with age your perspective changes so that each would be equally valid and complementary.
ReplyDeleteOh my, she is ever so lovely. I see that she is married. She is elegant. I love the colors. And OOOOoooo how I love your words; impetuous, tempestuous, intense. I am 56 and consider myself to be middle aged, for I have always been immature. I guess I am thinking more of my life as an "adult", thereby placing me in the middle. I feel about half done...or most days, about half started. Cheers to your newly awakened inspiration! **blows kisses** Deborah
ReplyDeleteThis was a great post, so inspiring! Scarlet is wonderful.
ReplyDeleteScarlet is opening and so are you. I find that when I have period of not creating I am digesting. Digesting the things around me, observing the light, the feel, and the colors, so it for me is not at all a time of not doing. I am swallowing all around me, chewing it up and regurgitating it back in to the world with my print on it. Scarlet was waiting for you to notice all she needed to come to life. What a wonderful place to be in. I am sooooooo happy for you. You give all of us the light and force of that feeling now, thank you.
ReplyDeleteAnd Ces this is a beautiful painting, just beautiful!
Thank you Marie, you are very kind.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sandy.
Yes she is married! I like the way you view midlifeDeborah. Actually I sometimes think I am ageless and I do behave rather in an immature manner but that’s the way it goes, sometimes.
Oh Arija, your words are so poetic. Aw. I love that you notice an embrace in her angularity.
Oh Ces I am in love with a woman in a painting. I just leaned over like wee Josephine and gave her a kiss on the computer screen.
ReplyDeleteCes she is brilliant. You are brilliant.
Your writing that accompanies the painting is extremly moving. I am touched to the core and I am so happy that she has opened her eyes.
Her eyes are open so that she can see the world again and know that her memories of a beautiful world don't only have to be memories.
Amazing Ces. You outdid yourself.
Love Renee xoxox
Oh Renee! What a gentle and moving act and I like that you used Josephine, that darling little angel, so lovely and full of life!
ReplyDeleteCes you are such a beautiful person.
ReplyDeleteI say there are three Vs for you and Bell and I.
They are Virtue, Valor, and Victory.
Love Renee xoxo
Did you see Karin's new painting. Oh my God. Her colours.
xoxoxo
yes I have and karin sizzles. And I told her that tepid is ot a word for her either.
ReplyDeleteAhhh Scarlet, awakened one; welcomer of color and light; lover of all things hot; inspiration to paint all that is in the heart of the fabulous artist that is Ces - we celebrate you!!
ReplyDeleteI would like to join you in a steaming cup please :)
thank you me fellow sizzler!
I mean MY fellow sizzler!!
ReplyDeleteAh! yes my fellow sizzler, a steaming cup is perfect! :)
ReplyDeleteScarlet is just beautiful and full of energy and pazzazz. Like someone else I know!
ReplyDeleteCes, aren't you a beautiful woman!! pretty too... but i mean "beautiful"
ReplyDeleteTsup*!* I love how you added the elephant brooch, a symbol to how blue Scarlet felt before your hand and brush swept new life into her and yourself.
ReplyDeleteI've told you before and I will again you should be exhibiting your art. Smiles*!*
Hello BT. Yes, I love Scarlet! I was very happy to paint her and was happy doing so.
ReplyDeleteOh Dusik! Thank you. *blush*
Thank you Bimbimbie. The elephant brooch is a symbol of someone I love dearly.
Yup! THIS is the one I mean...Scarlet, with the scarlet coffee mug,
ReplyDeletelove the blue blouse/jacket sporting elephant icon.
Gotta see if she has changed from 2009 until today!
(I know I have--changed, that is!)
Tsup, woman.