6/17/09

My Muse In Transit


My dearest Blogfriends,


I appreciate all of you and welcome you with open arms. I don't visit very many blogs, I tend to choose the ones I admire the most and then stick with them, but please grant me this privilege. I miss someone so terribly. She is in transit, on a journey with her beautiful epsilons minus their recently dear departed loving father, my friend's beloved. I wish them well. I am hopeful. I long for the day when I hear a cheerful hello on the other end of the line. In the meantime, please allow me to reminisce why this lovely human being is my muse, my beloved sister-friend. She inspires me in the most unsuspecting ways...I think of her and what she likes and what makes her laugh and my pigment ink pen glides effortlessly on the Bristol board. She tells me to resurrect a painting and it awakens...The irony of it all. She does not like attention to herself, not even on her birthday. She is a humble extremely gifted, talented artist and equally accomplished intellectual. If by chance she catches a wi-fi and opens up her iPod or MacBook Air and sees this, her toes will heat up and there will be a chance I will hear how I made her so self conscious. But right now, this is between you and me, about my muse and who inspires me. Here are some comments and post passages from my blog:
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Ces said...I found my muse and I can't wait to paint.
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"Bella, is my Thalia who makes me laugh, my Calliope and Erato who make me wax poetic, my Euterpe who makes me sing despite being out of tune and my Terpsichore who makes me skip and jump. She, with my Espilons, my Viking, my family and friends make my life fuller, happier and more blessed..She, together with Renee and Arija, inspire me to new heights, they brush the cobwebs of self doubt in my mind and power wash the stain of disappointment in my heart."
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But first, I will draw for she loves pen and ink...
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Bella Sinclair said...
Oh look, Ces! Look how adorable these two little girls are! They are so happy together. Awwwwwwww. Take my hand, and close your eyes, and together we will be six years old again in a gorgeous forest of inky leaves and beautiful, strong trunks. You will have to teach me how to plant a tree, since I was a city girl at six and didn't know much about gardening then.
Saturday, April 18, 2009 1:30:00 AM
Ces said...
Hehe. So was I. Most of the tree planting I did were at school or we took field trips to the mountains to plant trees. However, it is simple to plant a tree - dig a hole and just stick it there! Hahaha!Seriously though. My daughter told me that she and her classmates planted three red oaks and a maple in front of their school and when I asked her for details she was so surprised why I had so many questions. I told her that someday, 20, 30 years from the time they planted the trees she can go back and look at the trees and remember what she was like when she planted them and also remember her friends.She snapped me back to reality when she replied "Now why would I go back to intermediate school just to look at a tree?" I replied, "...because I did and still do. Every time I go home to the Philippines I visit my elementary school and check the mahogany tree and the acacia trees that we planted and they bring back memories." Then she said "Mom that is so boring. Are there any other places to visit there?"Haha!
Saturday, April 18, 2009 2:10:00 AM
Bella Sinclair said...
Hahaha! Well, she may change her mind yet. I don't think I was very interested in trees when I was a young teen. :)

Ces said...
Bella, I always loved trees since I was a young child and the irony of it all, we only have one tree in our yard now. She loves trees but they have to be really "outstanding." Saturday, April 18, 2009 6:16:00 AM
Bella Sinclair said...
Man, this is crazy wicked! Tight!
Saturday, April 18, 2009 8:30:00 AM
Ces said...
Bella you are tight!
Saturday, April 18, 2009 9:02:00 AM

Bella Sinclair said...
My gosh, I bow down to you. I came back here to smile at these two little girls, and I found I could hardly breathe when I saw the beauty of that mighty forest. The trees are so strong and tall and dense and lush. And I love the way the light reflects softly on the water. And those gorgeous, smooth rocks. Why is that one rock frowning, I wonder?Ces, you are really, truly amazing. Wicked good.
Saturday, April 18, 2009 10:08:00 PM
Ces said...
Bella! It rained all day, thunder and lightning and the absence of sunshine made me long for night because I know you'd wake up and deliver the sunshine! :) Ah the frowning face but did you see the man carrying a heavy load and the woman and the long mustached old man and the sinister lecherous looking leaves. Those two girls, will they be safe?Saturday, April 18, 2009 10:43:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
You are such a bundle of fun to hide little treats in your drawings. The more I look, the more I see. I found the man with the long, long mustache. I found a few other interesting beings and the faces in the trees. The two little girls will be safe. I am sure of it. Their happiness and love for each other are enough to ward off all evil. Besides, they bring life.
Saturday, April 18, 2009 11:06:00 PM
Ces said...
Bella sweetheart. You are absolutely right. See that spade? That cute little girl, she is a mental ninja. All she would do is say HIYYAH! and the faces will retreat.



Renee said...
Acorn + Ces + Bella + Renee = Life and Immortality.xoxoxo
Monday, April 13, 2009 7:54:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
Acorn + Ces + Bella + Renee A + C + B + R Hmmmmm.....C R A B
Monday, April 13, 2009 8:03:00 PM
Ces said...
Bella + Acorn + Renee + Ces = B-RAC Pronounced "BARACK" Oh no!
Monday, April 13, 2009 8:06:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
Bric-a-brac
Monday, April 13, 2009 8:15:00 PM
Ces said...
Uh...uh...I pass!
Monday, April 13, 2009 8:19:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
Pass me the plate of CARBs
Monday, April 13, 2009 8:21:00 PM
Ces said...
Oh you are in your finest mental ninja form tonight! Let me see...hmn...hmmmmnnn...Ooh! Size C BRA!
Monday, April 13, 2009 8:31:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
Pfffffft!
Monday, April 13, 2009 8:34:00 PM
Ces said...
WHUT?!!! Sore loser!
Monday, April 13, 2009 8:37:00 PM


My husband said the El Paraiso De Los Elefantes drawing is busy. I tell Bella...


Bella Sinclair said...
OMG!
Monday, June 01, 2009 9:22:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
OM FREAKIN' G!
Monday, June 01, 2009 9:22:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
I LOVE THIS!!! I LOVE THIS!!! SOOOOOOOOO NOT BUSY! IT'S COHESIVE! IT'S A MASTERPIECE!
Monday, June 01, 2009 9:23:00 PM
Ces said...
It's my birthday present for you! HAHAHAH!
Monday, June 01, 2009 9:29:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
Only you give presents to others on your own birthday, love.
Monday, June 01, 2009 9:34:00 PM
Bella Sinclair said...
I cannot get over how delightful this is! I am going to ride on his back. Good thing he's headed west.


"My dearest friend knows me too well, gives me support but ruins my sleep and makes me aware of being alive, who inspired me to draw the above piece when she wrote "You are my red Fiestaware in the snow". That is one of the greatest compliments I have received. Thank you very much."




Bella Sinclair said...
Ack! My TOES! They are burning up!Awwww, Ces, sister-friend. Thank you for this. I am weeping with joy. I need to borrow some of your wee men to come push these joyful tears aside. Perhaps the one rolling the penny -- he looks nice and strong. And I must say. It is a pure privilege to help your phalanges adduct and abduct. One day, my phalenges will embrace your phalenges. HA!I am such a wreck this morning with both tears and laughter. You drew SARDINES! Ahahahahaha! I love it! But tell me, does it make you lose your hair, too?





LOVE
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Love leaves blemishes like the drying autumn leaves that eventually rot.

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Bella Sinclair said... How do you know the exact time you fell in love! Ces, I'm just haunted by your post. I'm so, so sorry you've been hurt, and I agree that some types of love are over-rated. Love leaves blemishes, and yet blemishes are beautiful. Your words. Sometimes I wouldn't know I was alive if it weren't for the heartache and pain I feel. I hope you bought yourself some kick-a** jewelry.P.S. Your leaves are stunning. How did you get so many done so quickly!
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Very simple! I could not wait to show them to you!
(and she's the only one who knows the whole story about how I fell in love...HAHAHA!)

23 comments:

Ces said...

My blog will be on auto-pilot for 10 days starting Saturday, unless of course I cahnge my mind. Ha!

Karin Bartimole said...

an amazing history of friendship, art, and the power of this blogging medium. I know your muse is inspiring you continually and you are helping to carry her through this time of transit with your spirit and love for dear Bella, which she carries in her heart. Truly a remarkable tribute Ces...

Silke said...

What a tribute to a dear sister-friend! I just found out about Bella's husband and my heart is breaking for her and her girls! I am so glad she has you in her life!! Hugs, Silke

Leslie said...

Oh My! Wonderful work and I love, love, love the black and whites with the touches of colour and I love the story that fills in the spaces. Thanks for the day brightener.

Sarah said...

Oh Ces that was amazing!! IT really reached in and touched my heart!! Isn't it amazing when we find that person...the other half to you!!! My heart reaches out to Bella in thispainful time and to you as you guide her through this. Huge hugs to you both, Sarah

Deborah said...

How beautiful to have that connection with another soul. Your art is brilliant. Do you have an image in your mind when you begin, or does you hand simply know the pen as another appendage, the missing one, and when they reunite they form a world of their own?

Sandy said...

What a wonderful post, though I skimmed through it quickly and will come back and read more slowly. What a great tribute to a friendship. I happened to read last night about Bella's loss, but it was late at night and I was too tired to comment so thought I would come back today. Loved all the drawings you showed. What a sad loss for her and I wish her the best and her kids...

Arija said...

Ces, you are the epitome of friendship. Long may it prosper, heal and stimulate creativeness.

Renee said...

Ces what is there to say to something written as beautiful as this was written.

The art and the pictures for our sweet friend; your beloved sister-friend.

Ces, this is the most beautiful tribute to a friendship I have ever seen and as much as I know that you love Bella, I know that Bella loves you right back.

Ces this is exceptional coming from a woman whose exceptional is almost common place. This time you have even outdone yourself.

Love you Ces and Love you Bella.

Love Renee xoxo

Renee said...

Ces I don't think she will blush, I think she will be very honoured.

Love Renee xoxox

Renee said...

I know I will and I can't wait Ces, it will be remarkable.

Seeing you and Bella dancing in the book Bella made us on your side bar totally just choked me up. I picture the three of us dancing and now I am going to look at my book.

Love Renee xoxo

Marie S said...

Ces you are wicked amazing and I am in awe of this post. What a tribute to a wonderful woman and your love for each other.
HIYYAH!

Mrsupole said...

Hi Ces,

I hope that you will be able to help us here, with a donation and to help promote this for us. I hope things also work out for you.

I am shamelessly promoting a project at my website for everyone to see.

Just click on my name and then I will also ask if you will join me to shamelessly join in and promote it too. The more who join, the more shamelessness for us all. This should be fun for everyone and we are doing something good.

God bless.

Manon Doyle said...

Hi Ces,
What a remarkable friendhip you have with Bella! You are truly soul sisters.
I was so saddened to here about Bella's husband. I hope she draws much strength from you and her close friends.
Great tribute and your work is exceptional!
See you soon.... be safe!

Hildegarde said...

A beautiful contribute to your friend. Every time I visit your blog I am speechless of your capacities : the amount of what you show in drawings (skillfull and rich in fantasy and meaning) and text leaves me in amazement. You must have a miraculous time-management and character (and so warm-hearted).

linda cardina said...

ces,

i am in awe. this is such a wonderful tribute... i have never experienced such a beautiful friendship in my life. ..true sole mates. she is going to love this and feel so honored.

i hope u are doing okay, ces.

xoxoxoxlin

Eric Barclay said...

Too lovely for words.

Marie S said...

You can not eat the hearts.
Are you hungry Ces?

I am doing OK inspite of the weird things going on for the last 3 weeks. Maybe I should call them interesting. I do not really want to call them anything though.
Just trying to be like one of your trees Ces and bend but not break or be broken.
And how are you doing my friend?

aimee said...

i knew that if anyone could do the perfect tribute to bella, it would be you, ces. and you've done it. i'm quite choked up over this post, but also smiling, knowing there are others out there who understand what an extraordinary person she is.

Renee said...

Ces how are you today sweetheart? I miss you and here you are, right here.

I think I miss you more because Bella isn't here right now too. I miss Bella already.

I love your new banner, it is beautiful.

I of course love the full picture of us dancing.

My prayers are with all of us today.

Love you Ces.

Renee xoxoo

Ces said...

Yes, I miss Bella, terribly so.

Tessa said...

How spell-blindly perfect. Ces and Bella. A friendship which is inspirational, in the truest sense of the word. These two friends, their conversations, their art, their intellect. It's...well..it's just beautiful beyond words. Sorry...sorry..I'm bawling like a baby now.

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