A Sinistral Serenade With A Peacock. Oil on canvas, 30"x40". Dedicated to Inday Leah. I have been struggling what to say about this painting, then I had a discussion with my friend and and I told her what I thought. Hahahaha! I decided to share it here. I think this pretty much explains what I feel at the moment:
"You know, this painting is about how I feel about blogging and art at the moment. I love both and hate both. I am so ambivalent about these things lately. I continue to blog because it makes the people I love happy when they read and see what I have to say. Like my sister Leah, when she says she feels a connection to me. I love painting but I also hate the fact that I seem overruled by the desire to paint. I wish I did these things in moderation and rather nonchalantly. I also hate the fact that I fret over this every so often. Why can't I just enjoy it? I can't because when I do it, it is an obsession. I don't even give myself time to appreciate or enjoy what I just painted. It's not what I painted but rather that I am painting that seems to be the focus. Anyway. More blah blah blah…"