Merry Christmas, My Dearest Friend Renee

Renee With Serenading Love Birds On Her Crown To Chase The Bats Away
Pigment ink on 9"x12" Bristol Board. The Love Birds: Marie S., Linda Cardina, Bella Sinclair, Ces, Deborah the Poet, Manon Doyle, Sarah, Silke Powers, Diana Evans, Allegra Smith. Arija, Tessa Edwards, Baino and Pam (Yoborobo). You may still join the Love Bird serenade. Please let me know.

Ces: Knock! Knock!
Renee: Who’s there?
Ces: Love.
Renee: Love who?
Ces: Love bird!
Renee: Oh it’s you!
Ces: Yes it’s me.
Renee: Honest to God Ces, you are a kook! You need a spanking.
Ces: Please, please spank me!
Renee: I see that I do not need to spank you because it will not be a punishment but a gift.
Ces: I have a gift for you. Here it is. I hope you like it.

Yesterday I had a very difficult day. It’s one of those days when I am confident that things will work and my testing goes smoothly. I made a change, a small change to a massive rule module that has been my life, my bread and butter for the past six months. It has over 1,600 lines. Some items are hard-coded and it is like searching for a needle in a haystack. I go through several eyeglasses switches, and eye lubricants to augment my prescribed ophthalmic emulsion. My eyes become very dry. I have abdominal pains from stress and anxiety and the hairs on the right side of my head have turned grey. Yesterday I came to work wearing two different shoes, black on the left and brown on the right. Seems like an awful situation. I am not complaining because I love my work. I am also not complaining because there is nothing to complain about. For starters, the flying objects in my stomach are butterflies, they are not bats.

My beloved friend Renee has bats. She is not well, she has great discomfort, yet unless she says so, you would never know. She has conditions. Aside from cancer, she has this condition characterized by great enthusiasm for life; the ability to give wise counsel, to listen, to make merry, to cuss, characterized by massive doses of honesty and the great capacity to love.

I am dedicating my rule module to Renee. I am dedicating my Christmas celebration to Renee. I am dedicating this drawing to Renee. Look very closely my dearest sisterfriend. Each miniature squiggle was borne with a prayer of hope for your well-being and comfort; each line was borne with a prayer of thanks for the happiness and joy you give me; the shaded spaces were borne with a peace offering to drive the bats away.

I brought along my lovebird friends, perched on your crown. I do not want you to get sick from my singing so I brought along my friends so they can drown me out and together we sing a melody of love. Merry Christmas, my dearest friend.


Anne Huskey-Lockard said...

Ces, this is beautiful and heartwarming and I don't know whether to laugh or cry or do both or just wish you and your Dearest Renee a Merry Cesmass and Happy New Ear!
I am so thankful to be back from the hospital world and minimal time in blog-land and to see your work......what a delight to the eye and mental senses (or what is left of them)!
I am sure Renee will be thrilled with such a wonderful gift.....you are truly the force of nature that makes the great oaks grow!

Anne, recuping well from "Hurricane Hip"......LOL!!!

Bonnie, Original Art Studio said...

What a heartfelt gift from a dear woman to a dear woman. May you both know peace and be free from suffering.

Exquisite artwork Ces.

Arija said...

Ces, you are a marvel. I could not think of anyone more deserving to receive such a tribute. I love your elephant trees, they are so grounding.
I too pray and pray for Renee...

Happy Christmas my dear, you will start a craze of wearing odd shoes yet...

Silke said...

Dearest Ces, you always know just what to do and what to say! What a loving tribute to our dear Renee! I never thought that someone I've never met or even know what she looks like, could occupy my thoughts like Renee does these days! I gladly offer my prayers and hopes to yours and those of so many others! Together may we drive away those bats making Renee's life even more difficult! You are both such gifts to the world!! Love, Silke

Manon Doyle said...

Hey Ces....
This post brought tears to my eyes this morning! Your dedication is perfect, beautiful and so heartfelt. I love Renee! She has the best spirit I've ever known. She is a very special lady and I'm so happy you made this for her!!

yoborobo said...

Oh, Ces, this is so beautiful, I am crying. Renee is always in my heart, but I don't know how to say it, much less draw it. You have done that. And I am so honored to be a lovebird. I will sing loudly and in full voice (and as sweetly as I can manage) to scare away those bats from our dear friend. Merry Christmas to you, Ces, you are an amazing and loving person. xoxoxo Pam

Chris said...

Stunning, and so appropriate and worthy. Here's to Renee!

All the best, Ces.

Sarah said...

Oh Ces...I have tears streaming down my face! That is just beyond beautiful. I love your words and all of your squigly lines. They create a masterpiece of love for Sweet Renee.
Oh oh oh Ces!! I cannot tell you how honored I am to sit in your drawing and be a lovebird for her. I will be singing strong and true. Thank you!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year my friend! Renee will adore this like she does you hon!!
Love, Sarah
K...need kleenex..

Jenea said...

Very interesting drawing!!! I like totally!! I want to wish all the best for you and your so goof friens-Renee!!!! Merry Christmas!!! ;)

LDWatkins said...

Perfect, Ces. You are both in my prayers daily. God bless and Merry Christmas!

Renee said...

Ces I don't even know what to say except that I am beyond touched.

Before I came here and I read your comment about us having an earlier heaven, I thought of how similar we are.

In many ways I think our sisters and parents could have been interchanged except that they are all to dear for that.

I was in tears, just the heart tears that heat up your face because you feel, I don't even know what, maybe understood.

Then I come and read this and see the picture and I am so touched. Beyond touched really Ces.

I love you and I thank you and I feel much much more.

I love you Ces.

Merry Christmas.

Love Renee xoxoxo

Deborah said...

Wow. Nothing more needs to be said...that is The Final Word. Beyond beautiful, Ces...the drawing, the words, the heart behind it all. Perfection. I am so happy to be among the lovebirds. This love fest could never be explained...the gathering of the human spirit, the meeting of the soul. My life is ever so full now. You, Renee, and the rest of the lovebirds are exactly what I was missing. Merry Cesmass and Happy New Ear, my beloved friend.
**blows merry kisses** Deb

Bella Sinclair said...

I don't know which is more beautiful, the drawing or the words. I have 100 butterflies in my stomach, and they all have cAc on their wings. I shall sing loudly and for as long as it takes. My alto will harmonize with your soprano, and maybe if we sing enough heavy metal songs, the bats will have had enough and fly far far away. I will even rap if the bats hate rap. I cannot tell you how much I love this, how much I love you, and how much I love Renee. I am proud to be a lovebird.


Renee said...

Ces Jacquie asked me to put this here as she saide it won't go through.

hi ces
your blog to renee is so touching, but more than that you understand renee, which is a gift. your artwork and words have had such an impact on me also, at a time when i am numb with grief over sheldon ...your blog has lifted my spirits up knowing what this has meant to renee and i am truely thankful for that.
love and merry christmas ces.

Love Jacquie

Ces said...

My dearest Renee,
Thank you for sending me Jacquie’s message. Please tell Jacquie, thank you for me.

My dearest Jacquie,
It would be dumb for me to ask you how you feel knowing your struggles and coping with grief from the loss of Sheldon. He was an extraordinary and very special man. In his short time on earth and with his very young life he reminded so many of us on Renee’s blog, the meaning of love for family. He was a picture of courage and great dignity. I especially remember his statement when he told the doctor that he was ready but his family was not. What kind of family is ready and willing to lose a beloved one? I am just a friend and I was not ready. These days when I draw Renee, I think of Sheldon, yes, there is a teardrop somewhere, it’s for Sheldon. While I was drawing Renee, with every squiggle and line I prayed. I prayed that the Lord will tell me the meaning of a miracle for Renee and for you dearest Jacquie. I drew you as a butterfly on Renee’s right shoulder.

My dearest Jaquie, thank you very much and as hard as it may seem, please take a moment away from grief and pain and sorrow and celebrate Christmas with your beautiful and loving family. I hope I am not ever so bold to say that I feel in me, the same sensation I have for a sister when I think of you.

My love to your beautiful family. God bless you Jacquie.


Allegra Smith said...

With a friend like you all the riches of this world can be tossed out without a thought. You are a loving, caring and talented friend, whose heart travels through your fingers, and the rest of us who admire your work so much tend to forget that every line is you and every stroke is a show not only of your talent but of your generosity of being.

I am in awe of that talent, but most of all I am grateful for counting you among my friends and I don't use that term lightly. I have few friends, and I love them as if they were my own flesh and blood, because at some level we are made of the same "flesh and blood", loyalty, compassion, caring and sharing.

Happy Christmas my darling Ces. I wish we were closer to share a glass of bubbly and talk or be quiet. Just your company would be enough.

Renee said...

Dearest I will tell Jacquie that you have replied on my blog.

It is beautiful Ces.


Manon Doyle said...

Ces.... loved your comments on Renee's blog today! I hope your headache clears...lol!!!

Ces said...

Hello Anne, I am happy to see you up and about after your surgery. I hope you are getting enough rest and rehabilitation exercise. Merry Christmas to you and your DH Anne.

Hello Bonnie, welcome, nice to meet you. Merry Christmas to you and yours. Thank you. I hope everybody is free from suffering but as we know we are getting a fruit cake from the US senate tomorrow.

Arija, yes Renee deserves our love and support. What a magnificent lady she is. She reminds us to be our best. I would like to be able to do the same for my other blog friends who I know at this moment are quietly struggling. My prayers go out for them too.

Silke sometimes I do and sometimes I don't. Today I am glad, I was able to say what I wanted to say. Thank you Silke and Merry Christmas to you and Daniel.

Oh Manon, those beautiful eyes! Well I see that you noticed right away my comments at Renee's. Dang headache it is a precursor to what I am feeling now. I am sick, right before Christmas and right after I finalized the guest list! Merry Christmas dearest Manon.

I know you love her Pam. I see you there without fail, always cheering our beloved Renee up. I am no different from you. I just happen to love drawing trees. You express yourself so beautifully in ways that I can't. Have a Merry Christmas and to your family also.

Hello Chris, thank you!

Oh Sarah this was you wonderful idea, so thank you for giving me the chance to participate.

hello Jenea, I hope you mean good friends, yes, Renee and are are good friends, although we know how to goof off also :)

LD, thank you very much. Thank you!

Hello dearest Renee, giving you a little bit of sunshine is an honor. I especially love the Har-har! I hope you had a tolerable day today sweetheart. Love!

Deborah, I wholeheartedly agree with you!. I can say that you are one of the highlights of my year! Thank you. Also, I just want to say, that I can speak English fluently and I have been known to speak complete sentences, not just stammers. :) Hahaha!

Bella, I know what is beautiful - YOU! I hate rap but for Renee and a sisterfirend, rap, aria, pop, rock, anything to drive the bats away. One more thing, I love you too dearest sisterfriend.

Allegra, I thought of you today dearest Allegra. I hope I will have the honor to do what I would like to do soon.

Thank you Renee.

Manon, yes, hot and scorching!

Baino said...

Couldn't have said it better myself. Wishing you all a very happy Christmas no matter what your circumstances, everyone deserves a little comfort and love this time of year. Bless you Ces and bless you Renee.

Diana Evans said...

Hi CES!!!! This is so beautiful and Renee will loveeeeeeee it!!! I want to be a love bird!!!

I wish I could walk over some of my cookies for you...so we could have a coffee and a chat and share in some Holiday Sweets....

You are so sweet and I am so grateful we met....

I wish you and your family a wonderful Holiday !!!!

Thank you for your wonderful friendship!!!
Merry Christmas!!!


Jenea said...

haha!!! Upsss sorry!!! :)

BT said...

I read Renee's description of her suffering and it greaved me so much. What a wonderful idea of yours to dedicate that fantastic picture to Renee to 'drive the bats away'. I do hope it works.

zoe said...

what an awesome drawing! congratulations, renee, this should heal you instantly!