I woke up this morning, gathered my drawings by my bedside which I took to bed with me last night. The alarm did not ring yet. I automatically wake up at the same time. I have become a cyborg, except today I was so happy that my call will be over soon and I will enjoy the weekend. Then I realized it's only Tuesday...
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I wrote a letter (above) to a friend for one hour and I have not written a single word!
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I was upset with myself yesterday. I was at work. I went to the Women’s restroom and left my reading glasses there. I still had several hours left until I went home and I wondered how I can read without my glasses. I left my spare readers at home. I tried to recall where exactly I left my reading glasses. I can’t remember. Too much stress! My mind is shutting down. On the way back from the restroom, I saw my friend down the hall. I waved at her and did a dancing motion. She replied in the same manner. So we were waving and dancing without music while looking at each other from opposite ends of the hall. I went to the break room and made myself tea, very hot. I love hot tea. I love hot liquids, like coffee, tea or soup, not scalding but very hot.
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I tried to work and determine if I can use my computer and still be able to see. Maybe I can enlarge the font or move my chair farther from the screen. I could not see, my vision was blurred, so I adjusted my reading glasses. ..my reading glasses! I had them on all that time, I had my glasses on. Whew! What a relief. Darn! I am losing my mind! Drats! I can’t see!
I was upset with myself yesterday. I was at work. I went to the Women’s restroom and left my reading glasses there. I still had several hours left until I went home and I wondered how I can read without my glasses. I left my spare readers at home. I tried to recall where exactly I left my reading glasses. I can’t remember. Too much stress! My mind is shutting down. On the way back from the restroom, I saw my friend down the hall. I waved at her and did a dancing motion. She replied in the same manner. So we were waving and dancing without music while looking at each other from opposite ends of the hall. I went to the break room and made myself tea, very hot. I love hot tea. I love hot liquids, like coffee, tea or soup, not scalding but very hot.
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I tried to work and determine if I can use my computer and still be able to see. Maybe I can enlarge the font or move my chair farther from the screen. I could not see, my vision was blurred, so I adjusted my reading glasses. ..my reading glasses! I had them on all that time, I had my glasses on. Whew! What a relief. Darn! I am losing my mind! Drats! I can’t see!
Ces dear, no job is worth the stress you put yourself under.
ReplyDeleteDo take a couple of weekd stress leave and regroup. I love you too mush to see you crumbling like this.
Oh Ces!!!! LOL!!!!
ReplyDeleteNow you sound like me, except usually I have them hanging around my neck, or if it's a regular *glasses-and-not-contacts* day, I'll have the glasses on and wonder what in the hell I have done with them.
And then I look in the mirror.
Yes, stress is wiping us out. DH is quite ill again, I am hoping I missed it by a hair and have a viewing tonight and funeral tomorrow, plus all my sewing that the deadline is getting shorter. I want to crawl in one of you acorns and have the top super-glued on!
Could you make a very large one please? To accomodate loooooong legs? ;)
XXOO!!
Anne
It sounds funny, but then it's not, knowing that you are afraid to lose your eyesight! I bet it's just stress at this moment! I remember times like that when I was working and sometimes I would just have to take a mental health day, which did wonders getting me back to center!
ReplyDeleteThe acorn card is stunning! I so wish I could draw like you!!
Oh, and I LOVE hot liquids - there's nothing that soothes me quite like a hot cup of tea or a big bowl of steaming soup. In fact, I am off to make some tea now ... want to come over for a cup and a chat?!
Sending a hug through cyber space! Love, Silke
Yes, I'm with you there! When I was working I kept a spare pair in my desk ostensibly for me but they quickly became known as the communal specs as inevitably one of my colleagues would leave hers at home and would need to borrow them! I now have 4 pairs at home with the idea that there will always be one somewhere...yet most days I'm to be found hunting for the wretched things!
ReplyDeleteHA!!!! One day I went for my walk with my reading glasses on and wondered why my "sun glasses" were so bright and blurry! Beeeeutiful card! No need for word.
ReplyDelete**blows kisses** Deb
Love the nut my dear Ces!!
ReplyDeleteI can relate to the reading glasses but since I don't wear glasses ... I can relate to losing everything including my mind!! I call them * artistic moments*!!!
I spend so much time looking for my phone when I'm on it...
ReplyDeleteLOL!
much love
Put your glasses on, girl! Can't you see me jumping up and down and waving at your like a madwoman who badly needs to pee????
ReplyDeleteDearest Ces thank you for the peas in a pod comparison with Allegra, now that is something I would be proud of.
ReplyDeleteHow are your eyes my dear one. I see women of a certain age cannot do without their reading glasses (so said the woman of a certain age with her reading glasses on).
Love you.
Renee xoxo
How funny! And how many times have I done the same thing, except the dancing part. I should do the dancing part. It would probably help!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you're suffering from stress at work Ces. Do as Arija says and take some time off. It sounds as though your wrist is still paining you too. I wear varifocals and am lost without them. I keep my old ones just in case...
ReplyDeleteJim is always losing his glasses. We found one pair out in the garden!!
Ces - one time, I was very stressed out (it was a not nice time in my life, and thankfully it didn't last very long) I went storming through the house, ranting about my missing car keys.
ReplyDeleteThey were in my hand. I knew at that moment, I needed to consume some serious chill pills. LOL! I hope you feel better soon. Your card is perfect exactly as it is. :)
Thank you dear everyone for your kind words. The storms here don't last.
ReplyDeleteThank you Arija. I am fine. Nothing that caffeine and and laughter can't take away.
Oh Anne, once I put my glasses inside the freezer. I had no idea how in the world that happened but there it was, and it felt good to put on a pair of frozen glasses.
Oh Silke but you can. I did not think I cand draw after I started painting and all I did was paint, they are two different activities to me. I feel differently with each activity. I would like to have your snail mail address please.
Oh Caroline, I work with someone who has a tray full of reading glasses!
Deborah but I did write on the back!
Aah but those are intentional Manon. I know exactly what you mean. Those are my favorite moments when I am totally out of my mind and into my world of painting.
Hahaha! Stacey, that's funny I thought I was in trouble when that happened to me! OMG!
Oh Bella, go already, you've been holding that for a long time! I have a Cude cath in my hand' Hahahahah!
Yes! Yes! Renee, after 40 it's all downhill! Hahahaha!
Dancing is fun Kathi, so is singing. Try to do both!
BT it does not last long. I am very intense to start with anyway.
I'd actually be more stressed if I did not have this work.
Anyway dearest ones: I ordered new reading glasses last week, one that I will wear all the time, progressive and transitional conservative
Hello Pam. I read in the elevator tv feed today that when you are under stress it is good to let everyone know and really work on controlling displaced anger from stress. I tell my children when I am stressed and they remind me when I am being unfair.
ReplyDeleteSlow down...you are moving too fast. I know how frustrating it is to be without your glasses...it is so frustrating. Standing still is essential for our journey. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart
ReplyDeletethat's funny. yesterday i left my regular eyeglasses at home. i drove to work with my sunglasses thinking that my other glasses was in the case. when i was getting ready for report i realized i didnt' have them. i told my charge nurse if i can work with my sunglasses and she said yes with a laugh. luckily my roommate was going to work in an hour so i told her to bring it with her. just imagine working with sunglasses. patients might think i have sore eyes!
ReplyDeleteYou need a 'Me' day or two. Anyway you could take off a day or so, lock your door and just be 'Me'? Warm thoughts sent your way.
ReplyDeleteOh dear. I haven't done that yet but I do wake at the same time every morning. I share your work stress. I'm having a helluva time at the moment. One delightful boss and one total bitch who's making my day a living Hell! I wish I could draw, might relieve some of the stress!
ReplyDeleteOh I LOVE the dancing sequence...hahahahaha what a great way to completely break up a moment.
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